I hereby give you..

A quickie :B

Ok what have i been up to.

Yesterday, June 20th officially started on this little thingy..

Is it too small?

Ok its too small let me type it out for you heheh.

21 Day Bracelets

The idea is that you put on the bracelet, any kind of bracelet/band/wtv, on either wrist for 21 Days.

BUT for every complain/swear/sarcasm/etc you make, you would have to switch the bracelet on your other wrist and start from Day 1 again.

From tumblr;

"The theory is that it takes 21 days to form a habit. Therefore if you can go 21 days without complaining, you will have formed a more positive mindset."

You can always Google it to know more :P

I couldnt find a bracelet or band that i liked, so my sister E'zzati gave me this cool green guitar band thing :B

Another mini picture for you ha ha

So yeah, come do this with me!

June 20th Day 1

Heres some of my favorite pictures of The Dzuls in Gold Coast Australia

 Tell me thats not 4+ year old SWAG and ill kill ya haha he kinda looks like Law from Poreotics, love them

Wish to get there some day :)

Oh i am watching ABDC Season 3 all over again right now, Quest Crew makes my life!

All right, i hate massages.

Btw Ryan Dunn from Jackass passed away yesterday.

Last night i wikipedia-ed him and it said that he died in a 20 men orgy.

Today it said that he died in a fiery car crash.

Sorry im just curious but anyways,

rest easy Ryan Dunn you made a lot of people smile :)

Oh yes heres a picture of me in the bus with tonnes of makeup getting psyched nervous and stuff on the way to compete during the Singapore Youth Festival 2011

You know i love you.

Goodbye

PS HAPPY GO SKATEBOARDING DAY WILLIAM SPENCER DAVEDAYS AND ALL THE SK8ERS OUT THERE!!!!!!!!!\
HEHEHEHE

Jobrolls

am·bi·tion

1. A strong desire to do or to achieve something, typically requiring determination and hard work

2. Desire and determination to achieve success

Yup, and before i begin on this post i would like to tell those who were wondering about my hospital stay that..

i will not be posting about it just yet.

Gotta gather everything up and stuff.

So yep here goes todays post after, what, almost a week.
Oh and i hope you dont think i think that im not serious with writing in this blog.
Things came up.
You know..
Things happen.
Ya.

Im not sure why this topic came up.

It just did.

Must be from my confused teenage mind, yeah..

So the first ambition i had for quite a long time.

I remember i wanted to work as this since i was in kindergarten, i guess?

Drumroll please..

YES A TEACHER!!!!

Bwahahaha honestly im not sure why..

But i loved writing on blackboards and whiteboards, i loved trying to explain things, i loved grabbing hold of other people's attention..

Not to mention ive always wished to hold that metal stick pointer thingys that my teachers used to use in kindergarten and primary school.

Heres a not so helpful picture of it..

Lol, you get the idea.

I find fun in trying to explain things cuz it helps me understand it better as well.

I also love writing on whiteboards because i love the smell of markers and im weird like that..

And then just until when i was about fifteen i started to have another ambition.

Come on, make a guess..

YUP A DANCER!!

Having joined a Performing Arts CCA in secondary school, i have come to realize that i love performing.

It just helps me boost a little air of confidence in myself everytime.

It all started in 2010 when i was introduced (and influenced?) to the Hiphop world even further and i got really interested.

ALSO the fact that my school (indirectly = me hahaha) had been called up to perform for the opening for AYG '09, National Day '09, YOG '10 etc it felt nice to be called to do what i love.

(Btw i was in Malay Dance in secondary school, its more of a cultural dance and not modern/hiphop/stuff thus my interest in hiphop/modern/stuff.)

So one of my friends and my sister and i would go and have random dance classes in real studios.

And the feeling when i do that, well i mostly felt nervous cuz i felt like sucha noob and i felt "too young" but hey, now i think back and i think that i shouldve put more effort at that time cuz look at Chachi!

Shes so young yet she has already achieved soo much more..

So besides that, i have a sister who knows more about these dance stuffs and she took me to catch The Big Groove 2010 and there i watched Wrecking Crew Orchestra and Hilty & Bosch and QUEST CREW(!!!!!!) and many more ahmazenggg dancers and i felt so pumped to follow their footsteps!!

And so i tried and is still trying..

So i thought that maybe i didnt want to spend my future career just dancing alone.

When i get a boyfriend he might post this on his car window thingy..

But that would be kinda hot..

Alright my Dad might be reading this..

SO i thought, why not put both ambitions together and then when i get a boyfriend he will have this on the car window thingy instead..

Mkay i just wanna apologise for spoiling your eyes, eeeek..

I tried, but i guess i should stop..

(Yes the brown thingy is supposed to resemble the lines of a mirror and i just colored its bald head for hair and "edited" then business suit for a dope dancer tee oh my God i am so lame..)

So yeah i thought that perhaps i dont just perform dance but also teach dance because i love to teach and i love to dance..

But yes it occured to me that i would have to choreograph dance pieces to teach and i have yet to master choreographing i could only freestyle in my head..

Next, i got really hooked onto this show called CSI ahh yeah~

Thus my next interest in this little thing called

YAYYYYYYY FORENSIC SCIENCE!!

I love CSI and especially Greg Sanders, he brought me to realize how sexy DNA can be and how interesting getting matches can be.

Also, i love the mysteries and challenge in solving crimes and i am definitely NOT a violent/physical person so being a cop is totally off the charts and being  Forensics Investigator (?) would be such a awesome job for me..

Of course i have also thought about taking up being a lawyer because I LOVE ARGUING ESPECIALLY WHEN I HAVE FACTS AND IM RIGHT BUT its rather risky because i could have the bad guy as my client and then i would have to defend the bad guy and obviously when we win he walks away with that much money and as a free bad man which defeats my purpose because being the great lawyer that i am (would be) i believe in justice..

So many becauses.

This ambition still holds pretty strongly i might take Digital Forensics if i get the chance.

The next ambition is..

LOL YES Psychologist!!!

Yes i am aware that there are a few types of Psychologists and the one im referring to is;

Clinical professionals who work with patients in a variety of therapeutic contexts (contrast with psychiatrists, who typically provide medical interventions and drug therapies, as opposed to analysis and counseling)
Yes im a person who loves to listen to problems and help out.

Ok i take that back i dont love to listen to problems i just am better at doing so.

Besides, you cant deny that the introduction to my profession would be pretty cool;

"Hi my name is Lin, im a Psychologist because im a Psycho."

LOL see what i did there?

I just creeped you and messed with your mind a little i am made for this job!!

Hahaha just jk.

But seriously.

Alright bear with me im almost done!!

I have almost always always always wanted to open a..

Hahahaha yeah baby yeah!!

Bakery/Cafe/Restaurat/MeeRebus Stall whatever!!!

I LOVE COOKING/BAKING/WHATEVER THAT TASTES TASTY FOR THAT MATTERS!

I have always wondered, wouldnt it be awesome if im an heiress of a restaurant..

Wahoo!!

Dont care even if its just a Mee Rebus Stall i would LOVE cooking for food!

I mean, people.

In primary school my best friend's parents had a stall at the coffeeshop behind my house which sold awesome malay food.

Mee Rebus especially!!!

I would save my money and come home from school and buy my mum a packet of them and surprise her!!

(Btw for those who doesnt know what Mee Rebus is, go google it hehe)

Ahh good times.

I dont even mind cooking Ramly Burgers at Pasar Malams cuz those burgers are beast!!

(And again, for those who doesnt know what Ramly Burgers/Pasar Malams are, go google it hehe)

So yeah, cooking.

Definitely in my dreams list.

MKAY SO LAST BUT NOT LEASTTTTTTT

YESSERIIAAA i would love to become a professional blogger(..?)

LOL i love writing and blogging and i think i write better than i blog so yeah.

Great thing about blogging is that i could also do two-in-ones and become a blogger cum baker/cooker and post recipes and stuffs online which one be awwwsuuuummmm!!

I really really really enjoy writing and doing these stuff so why not!! Hehe

Before i end off i just wanna story a little about this other thing that bugs me towards me dreams.

I have nuerous, countless friends who are such really very so talented people.

My best friend(s) sings really really well.

Another dances so damn well.

Of course there are also those who are just incredibly smart and has the brains of a professor or something..

And me?

I have yet to discover my own talent, if any for that matter, and not sure if i ever will.

Even my sister flairs in Art in her own way which probably nobody (except maybe me lol) ever understands while i have no creativity much as you can tell by the thing i edited above..

But whatever it is im just really thankful and grateful for parents that, well, lets me have ambitions of my own

Unlike those parents who tells their children to become a doctor and/or stuff although i think they mightve wanted me to be one but never really brings about in saying it in which case im sorry Mum and Dad..

Lol.

Trust me, if i ever could, i swear i would..

But of course as any sane and responsible parent they want me to have a stable job in which i can survive on which is completely reasonable and i do agree on.

So yeah im just a confused teenager and theres no doubt for even more ambitions to come in my way but for now, let me just leave you with this thingy i read from this amazing musician youtuber Tom Milsom

i cant really quote what he said cuz i read it from his tumblr quite a while ago and i cant really recall it properly but it went something like

"Talent is not something someone is born with, its something someone grows to learn in the course of one's life."

I am on my way to figuring that out.

Check him out btw, hes amazingly talented.

(N yes bright blue because his hair is bright blue although i cant find the right shade.

Shall leave you with this picture of me webcamming and just realizing that my brother's soft toy penguin might be stalking me look how its staring right into the camera pscht creepy

LOL i told you so.

So yup guess thats about it a very long post eh.

Do comment..if you wanna.

Oh yes pictures taken and edited from Google.

You know i love you.

Goodbye

hacer el seguimiento

Hello.

Part I

Ive once been asked how i can write about my days in such a detailed way.

Well, all i can say is that i use my diary.

School diary, that is, since i spend most of my days in school more than at home.

Writing in my diary helps me keep track of stuff.

If you see my diary i usually write in pencil and i write really reaaallly small, only for my eyes to read.

I write funny things that happened in the day, and what i brought for recess and homework and..

And i realized most of the time in class my mind is elsewhere like on 13 January at 1130-1131am i wrote "MY MIND, RIGHT NOW, IS ELSEWHERE".

I dont even know why i wrote that, plus, was my mind elsewhere for just one minute?

Thatd be alright.

BUT i wrote again at 1229pm saying "EURGH. :|"

Gosh im clueless about myself.

On February 10th i had my braces off and the next day i wrote "I look like the old me, which scares me, because i know ive changed" which is just so true.

Part II

And then Malay Dance training begins and goes on intensively in preparation for SYF.

Then on March 31st was our first showcase to the school.

Just one third of the whole dance and my left arm was tired.

I couldnt hold it up for no longer than 2 counts.

Then i was hit with fever and went home str8.

April 2nd was the showcase and i survived.

April 12th, the real thang.

April 14th, silver's shiny.

And then i had NAPFA and that was when i realized i couldnt even hold myself up on the pull up.

I couldnt run, i had to hold my left hand with my right hand because it would flab.

I couldnt jump because my feet and legs were heavy.

May 28th to 30th i was hospitalised for scans because the doctors didnt know whats wrong with me.

It was weird, i promised never to come back.

SO after that hospital stay i had to keep coming back for appointments and therapy.

I had to endure all the needles and scans and xrays.

And finally this is what mightve happened to me.

Mmmhmm and these squared ones are those they have aleady tested on me and stuff im experiencing (weakness, loss of strength n muscles, difficulties etc)

BUT that little last test they have not run on me.

Yup the Spinal Tap/Lumbar Puncture.

And guess whaat?!

Yes, im going back to the hospital tomorrow and i probably will be warded again.

To run that test.

So my Mum opted for me to be put to sleeping numbness so i wont feel anything but

im just really freaked.

Thoughts of the possibility that i might wake up in the middle of the whole process with pain gushing into my senses and head is scaring the hell out of me.

But i really want it to be over.

Yes, i fear needles and pain.

Ah everybody pray for me while i try to console myself.

Part III

Being a teenager taking her Os this year and being ambushed with health problems (rashes twice fever almost every month this thingy lack of sleep aches)..

i feel like i complain too much.

I happen to be a girl who thinks too far or too much and notice and absorb every little thing one says or does and stuff..

And after much thought and neverenough experience, id like to conclude (for now) that..

Everybody has their own problems to care about yours.

Yes problems can be shared but end of the day there is proabably just and only one person there to really listen and be by your side and try to make as many things as convenient as possible for you.

(In my case, the person is my Mum and Dad)

And this can only happen when your problem actually become/is their problem too.

Know what i mean?

So yeah when i think of sharing my problems now i think about how others have their own problems too.

And if i cant help them, i dont think they can either.

If i wont, they wont either.

So i try my best but ill leave you with this..

This i agree with and will probably involuntarily think about as well..

All in all, i really hope my next hospital stay (if any) will be tolerable and i will be cured when im back..

Sad that my holidays has to start this way..

I shall leave you with sort of a quote i read byTimothy Shieff..

All pictures taken and edited from Google and Tumblr.

You know i love you.

Goodbye

PTS

POP TARTS FOR THE FIRST TIME AHHHHHHHHHHH
When i first knew about it, i thought they can only be found in the US.
But nooo, my bff told me it can be found right here in Singapore!
But sadly i could only find two flavors :(
Id love to try Smores, those frosted ones and especially Brown Sugar!!!
Ha because Davedays made a song for Brown Sugar Pop Tarts cause theyre his favorite flavor.
BUT STILL.
I LOVE BROWN SUGAR AND DAVEDAYS.
HEHEHEHE.

I love William Spencer, i love his style, i love how he puts together parkour tricking and skateboarding, i love his green wheels.

Ahhhh pure respect!

So here you go, idols of mine.

Mmmm, whos YOUR idol?

Teehee.

You know i love you.

Goodbye

Hello

Hi hello.

This is rather saddening, i have decided to leave my old blog, for a reason too many.

Before i begin explaining, id like to warn you that ive decided post proper stuff in this blog.

You know, like stuff ive planned on blogging about.

But of course random stuff too haha.

Im not gonna make it like my old blog, promise.

Mkay, so now let me explain.

1. After many many months of thinking about starting anew, well, i tried. The first thought was to delete all my older posts and just start to post differently, but i obviously failed. Over five hundred posts and it all sounded a little too troublesome.

2. I had that blog since April 2009. I made that blog actually because of another blog which dont seem to exist anymore (my-watercooler-romance). When i click to the page, theyll only show me a white screen. Hm. So yeah i made the new one as a replacement. Which also failed on me.

3. Which brings me to my next reason. FOR SOME REASON, i can no longer sign in to my previous blog because they told me i needed to verify my email which i cannot because of bloody spam mails so im blocked from that email. So what i decided to do was to create a new email (which i was really happy about) but now when i try to sign in to my new email (which i was really happy about) they told me i had tried to sign in too many times. I was like oh okay and i tried again another day but i still couldnt sign in so that means there is just no way i could ever enter that blog account ever again. Sad, no? Oh and being so pissed i replied hotmail's email which is apparently the account which is not monitored hm.

4. This reason goes to all my immature posts from when i was 14. What an immature life i had. 2009 was my worst year ever. I was young, immature, stupid, i was infatuated with just the wrong boy and did not realize it, and it just brings back really horrible memories.

5. Check out August 2010 April 2011 and some July/August 2009 for my fun times and good memories tho. Really great times :)

YAY IVE COME TO THE END OF MY REASONS :B

So yeah as i really really reaalllyyyy dislike this template its green no more..
But i lightened up abit at the sight of the Language they automatically assumed hehehe :P

So yup ive also decided, for you new readers (if any), that im not gonna give my old url.

If you found it then yay you :B

teehee please feedback :(

Heres a not so recent picture

Do you know now? Till then :B