NW YR RSLTNS.

HULL-O.

I have a topic today!.

A little short topic, though.

I've been wanting to get around to it ever since the New Year, but haven't because they have been coming along as I live on.

Yup, its my New Year Resolutions. :B

I have decided to NOT come up with a whole list of NYRs at the start of the year, only becaue I know I would have already given them up by now if I did.

Also, I wanted to them to come as/after I experience something, only because there would be more of a meaning as to keeping up with it, no?.

Lets get to it.

1.

SURVIVE.

Or, at least, try to.

Okay I'm going to be honest and say I did come up with this ON NY itself.

It seemed..appropriate I guess.

Isnt that the point of living every day, to go through it all and make it out in the end?

What is the point if you dont even try to survive?

What is the point of going through it halfway if you dont intend to make it till the end?

I mean, doesn't survival mean or even sound important or meaningful to you when you know you are/have been through the painful part?

Like the light at the tunnel at the end.

Yes yes yes, I also came up with this after what has happened to me last year.

I remember waking up every morning telling myself "I wanna get out of here" but always with "alive" at the end.

Anyway, I think to survive is already one main goal in everyday life.

There is ALWAYS one thing every day that you just have to survive doing.

Like, I have to survive today at work.

Or, at cooking.

Or, at walking twenty steps to the bathroom.

You get what I'm saying.

I want to survive this life, and whatever that was put in my way.

AND I want all of you to survive with me.

OKAY?!

Remember..

even

TEEHEE. :3

2.

JUST FINISH DOING WHAT I HAVE STARTED.

Okay this one came along at like the second week or so.

I was procrastinating alot and just looking for reasons to not do something, as always.

And then I thought, I gotta do this one, really gotta stick to this one.

Finish doing what I have started.

Why?

Simply because I have started doing it anyway.

Like this one morning when I woke up for school, and thought that I really wanted to skip that day.

But then I thought, I already woke up and was already about to shower, and I knew I wouldn't be able to go back to sleep.

So I went to school anyway.

It just seemed rather dumb to wake up for something and then going back to sleep just because of plain laziness when you can actually go out there and learn something and do yourself some good.

There are SO MANY things I REALLY do not want to do this year but I just got to.

I've already started, so heck it, I'm going to complete it and do it till the end.

Why would you start something if you want to stop halfway anyway.

If you want to stop halfway, then dont start at all.

Like me.

:3

Cuz, you know, finishing something is one of the greatest feelings in the world.

YES THOSE ARE MY TWO GOLDEN NW YR RSLTNS.

WHAT ARE YOURZZZZZZ.

:B

Friday this (last?) week, had the opportunity to FINALLY taste the Yu Sheng.

After school, went down to the canteen and saw a hubbub.

Didn't know what was going on until we got to the halal table haha.

Amirah kept saying shes going to the canteen for the "chopstick thing" and I was like what could a chopstick thing be haha.

It tasted interesting.. And it looked quite pretty!.

Especially the green color string thing ones... HAHA. :B

The first taste was sooooo weird. I didnt like it.

And then I kind of kept eating the carrot strips and then thought it tasted pretty okay.

Like sweet sweet rojak.

I just didnt like the radish or candied ginger thingy.

Those heaty flavors are too strong for me haha.

And I loved the orange pillows thingy.

We were practically fighting for them keke :P

Keshini ate (almost) the whole thing :O hahahaha

AND these are the faces that I look forward to seeing/that keep me alive and going to school.

Seeing them immediately puts a smile on my face like they saved me from the day or something haha.

Love them.

Thank you babes so much.

Mad love. :3

(Yes yes yes I am so puffed la di da di da I am aware of that and I am waiting on that cut on those meds. I know. I cant wait too.)

Then Puppa came home with my stuff from Indiesin.

YAY FOR GREEN PACKAGING!. :B

And sometime earlier that week Mumma and I cooked Black Pepper Pasta!.

YUMZ.

Spot the difference~!. :P

And now its time for these..

Any takers on helping me swallow them up?.

Ill let you keep the heart. ^^ :P

Alright, as I go off into the night, I hope this little quote thingy explains for itself for me.

Oh, and just wondering, has anyone been SO NICE to you till it keeps you awake trying to understand why?.

Like, are they genuinely just born that way, does that to everyone else, or just does that out of pity?.

I don't understand you and I dont know if I want to.

But thank you anyway.

Du vet jeg elsker deg.

Goodbye

Sun aint the only thing thats coming up

Hullo.

Here goes.

Not much to be blogging about, except for the fact that I have been observing my own luck and counting on the good days and bad days I get in a week, and then interpreting them and calculating its average.

Its kinda crazy, but at first I came to the conclusion where my good and bad days come and go on alternate days, and then I was wrong and it went to the first and last day of the week.

And in the end, I just told myself my good and bad days will come and go as they like and I should not anticipate anything, really.

I always seem to go right opposite my own words dont I.

Last week was my first week having a full week. :3

Skipperdy skip, Thursday was the Chinese New Year celebrations in school, and MALAY DANCE ROCKS!.

I cheered to the maximum and my teacher tapped me and asked, "You missed it huh?" and I was like "HAHAHA OF COURSE" :P

They did the Variety Show piece, which was contemporary, which was intense.

AHHHHHH I love Mf Malay Dance, I miss them and dancing so bad. :'(

Cant wait to get back to that, for sure.

Tuesday was my OT appointment at the hospital, where I found out my writing abilities is officially in the "average" range haha.

(Which means my hand writing is normal yet again)

Therefore hopefully I do NOT have to opt for extra time fo my exams, because I REALLY dont want to.

Had dinner at the hospital with Mumma.

Delifrance now officially sells Macarons, for real!.

Nomnmnom :3

Look here, I just discovered Honeystars now makes rockets too!!

Honeyrockets~!.

So cool.

OK COOKING PART OF THE POST.

I should have this section in every post; THE CPOTP. :P

Yesterday, Sunday, I woke up super early so I DID listen to the malay radio drama aka Pentas Radio (?) with Grandmumma.

(It was about Puteri Bunian but the drama kinda ended hanging :/)

In the afternoon I made Shepherds/Cottage Pie.

3 reasons;

1) Ashiqin made and brought one for me (well, us) to school earlier that week and it was HELLA GOOD

2) I was bored to death

3) I wanted to

I JUST LOVE mashed potatoes.

Sprinkled the last of my Parmesan cheese :( Now I need to get some more.

AND the finished. :3

Oh before you judge and say anything (haha) just wanted to point out that I put them in those aluminium muffin tins cause I didnt have cups or whatever to put them in.

(FYI shops were closed)

Aidie's parents dropped by the house later that evening and so I let them try it, and they loved it ahhhhhhhhh *_*

FINALLY!.

Also packed one for them to bring back to Aidie haha he took a picture of it and tagged me on Facebook =.= :B

He even added the packet of chilli sauce kekeke.

So much laughter too.

(When they just arrived)

My Dad: Ni pakai uniform, kerja eh?.

Aidie's Dad: Tak lah, pakai uniform suka suka je. =.=

Aidie's Dad: I want to put year only in Facebook, no need put birthdate.

Aidie's Mum: Why?.

Aidie's Dad: Later when my birthday come, my wall will be flooded with birthday wishes.

AHAHAHAHA and there are some more but....kekeke :P :B

And then THIS was my dinner tonight (Monday) :3

Maple Glazed Salmon!.

Never really tasted TASTED salmon before, so thought it was really fishy.

But the glaze and the pepper crust KILLED IT!.

Nomnomnom :3

Here is the camera LaSalle dropped on my sister Ezt's lap for use. Goes in the sky, underwater, 11 megapixels and records in HD. Its a GoPro Camera.

So frikkin cute and badass, no?!?!

We should secretly keep it.

Ezt: Its like 11 megapixels and records in HD somemore~

Lin: OK LETS GO ST. GAMES!.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST;

GONG XI FAN CAI~~~~~~~~~!.

(Its an inside joke, Afi [below, right] came last Friday and before going home he kept saying "Gong Xi Fan Cai" instead of "Gong Xi Fa Cai" so we kinda teased him on that since then hehe :P)

ARENT THEY CUTE ARENT THEY CUTE ARENT THEY CUTE.

The Dzuls going for collection~ ^^ :3

They look so happyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

HMMMMM I have also kind of thought of "decided" that I would like it if I got a guitar for my birthday.

Already getting a something from the parents, its already here but will only officially exist as mine when my birthday comes :B

OKAY SO TAKE NOTE EVERYBODY!.

You all have one month :P

TEEHEEE.

Sidenote:

Flash back to date 2101, only because

1) Happy 16 years 11 months birthday to me!! :')

2) its actually going to be my last month BEING sixteen :'(

Like Drake said, "Better late than never but never late is better." :3

My huge carebear and I are just as chubby.

Du vet jeg elsker deg!.

Goodbye

"No I will not stand in the middle of your quest for knowledge!."

Hullo.

How are you?! Haha. Mkay so I have decided to blog because I feel like it and because there are some things I have decided on which I have decided to tell you.

I shall just run through how the week(s) has(ve) been first alright.

LEHHGO.

Last Sunday I woke up super early, so I rolled around in bed and then decided to cook up some breakfast.

In which case, was Crepes.

YEAH!.

Grandmumma was making some breakfast too, so just the both of us were in the kitchen cooking our stuff and listening to the malay radio drama which was pretty interesting.

Then I told her I will wake up early every Sunday to cook breakfast and listen to the malay radio drama with her and she got kinda happy hehe.

(I woke up late today tho :( hehe)

If you ask me how school is, its actually going pretty alright. I mean, of course certain stuff are still pretty frikkin awkward for me (blame myself for being such a quiet and unsocialable person) but besides that I am finally using my brain and burning more calories again. :)

Yes, Mumma said that now that I have started schooling, I am burning more calories, thus my metabolic rate is higher and so I can afford to eat a LITTLE more food haha.

Speaking of school, Mumma (with Grandmumma) went to NTUC the other day and has generously (as always) bought me a little study table.

(Its ORANGE. >.<")

It is so super hella useful for me, I actually do find that I do bother doing my homework or studying now haha. And I can put my stuff on it when I'm sleeping!.

Oh yeah its in my room right beside my bed so its also like a bedside table = pretty frikkin badass huh. :3

Yeah but certain things I still gotta plan and think ahead of how I can not trouble other people while in school because that is just a horrible, nasty feeling and to make things easier for myself.

My classmates are also very weird. :/

Here's a scenario:

Bio lesson.

Teacher: Do you see that the image jumps?. Why is that so?.

Classmate 1: MAGIC.

Classmate 2: Because your eyeball different place lah!~.

And then there another scenario where Classmate A told Classmate B to "speak muslim" lololol~

And the title of this post is from my teacher regarding something another classmate have said hahaha.

All in all, I do not want to look forward to school so much just so that when its nice to me, I would be genuinely surprised. :3

This is the little biography thingy I made as homework.

At first I only pasted the picture of Ezt and I and then I thought, why not just paste all of The Saids, and so there smacks my little brother. :)

Oh yeah on Monday I stayed for abit to watch my lovely batch receive their O Level results.

I miss them all.

When I saw all the familiar faces strolling in, it kinda hurt because I felt that I was supposed to be there.

I miss them all.

Ay, this is totally random, but Mumma sent me this while I was taking an afternoon nap one of the days.

My name was in the malay papers.

Apparently there are fake facebookers using my name haha.

Its getting too popular AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

OOOOOOOOOOH TICTICTIC GOT HOME FROM SCHOOL TUESDAY AND THIS WAS ALREADY HERE!.

On Monday the FedEx dude called me up because they got my address wrong!!

They were missing a digit on my unit number haha =.=

BUT IT GOT HERE. YEZZUH ME SO LOVE IT.

But I ordered a L on mine but it was just as big as Ezt's S lol.

Mine is the top POREOTICS one.

Ezt's the bottom TICTIC one.

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Then on Thursday I missed school for an appointment with my Neuro doctor.

Met a cute little kid whom I entertained (and he entertained me as well) for the hour of waiting.

He was playing with his purple hammer balloon and dinosaur.

Really, really cute, with dimples and all, will show you a picture when I find it HEHE.

Anyway, no changes to anything, doctor told me stuff which I have expected before going so no surprise there.

Headed to City Square with Mumma for Ban Mian and then to the NTUC for some ingredients and then made Cheesy Garlic Bread at home.

On Friday I (finally) stayed back for a few hours with Amirah for some sharing and studying.

Also, I just feel like I have to mention this.

EVERY FRIDAY after recess my mind seems so shut down.

And it so happens that the only subject I have after recess is Mathematics.

The first week, my mind just shut itself so I pretty much stoned throughout the whole hour half.

This week, I could not count from five to ten and did ALL the question when my teacher told me to skip some (and I actually cancelled the questions which I was supposed to skip) and when I realized my friends were all done with their work I was there wondering why I have not and was gabra-ing.

Sigh. Lin.

I also pretty much noticed that my classmates are pretty smart, and I have a LOT of catching up to do.

I'm losing out man. I gotta buck it up so bad and so fast.

My teachers have also been so frikkin nice to me I am so frikkin scared of failing them. :(

Then on Saturday afternoon I went over to McDonalds to meet my Aunts (and Uncle).

Tasted the Chikkin McBites and Chocolate Macaron Frappe.

HOLY MCDONALDS THEY WERE SOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOOOD *_*

The McBites are like super cute mini McNuggets and the Chocolate Macaron Frappe was just sinfully good, it was nice to have something different from the usual Double Chocolate Frappe but still as chocolatey.

I also expected them to stick a Chocolate Macaron on top of the frappe on the whipped cream but turned out that they actually BLENDED it together IN/WITH the drink.

Oh how weird is that but it was still good.

Yummy.

The Dzuls came over later that evening, so Grandmumma cooked feast haha.

She cooked Mee Soto (requested by me :P) and also epok-epok/currypuffs (requested by Dzulkurry lol :P).

These are the ones I "kelim"-ed.

Basically means I "folded"(?) the crusts part.

This one is the curried potatoes.

I liked the scrambled eggs ones better.

And, as usual The Dzuls were a lovely funny happening pair haha.

Aidie came over as well!. It was nice talking to him (actually TALKING to him WHEN I AM SOBER) although he was pretty frikkin annoying and kept singing that Titanic song by Celine Dion in his bzz voice haha.

Aidie: *sings* Near, far, whereeeeeever you are.....My heart will go onnnnnnnnnnnnn...

Lin: Can you please at least sing a different song now?!?!

Aidie: Oh okay. *pause* *sings* Every night in my dreams...I see you..I feeeeeel you...

Lin: THAT IS THE SAME SONG BUT DIFFERENT LYRICS!!! =.=

Hahaha but he was frikkin funny argh I see him so rarely now miss those times when his family lived just next door.

ALRIGHT so I have runned through my week with you, so now is the time for the teeny update I have decided on.

Although there is school and all, I have decided to blog ONCE EVERY WEEKEND. :)

Just on whatever, interesting things from school (though I doubt so :P) or just stuff from the last few months maybe which I have missed out on.

Guess it will play as a fun rest time for me and, you know, stuff like that.

I do hope it works out, though, I also do want to do this in hopes that I will write better in school haha.

SO YEAH!. :3

Before going off, I wanna leave you with this thing that Amirah said to me last Friday, which seemed to make more sense to me than ever.

I asked her if she thinks that God placed me back in school for another year for a reason (besides academics) and if there will be good things and she told me;

"If I said that good stuff will happen, confirm bad stuff will also happen."

I cannot believe I let myself into drowning into the fact where I thought that only good things will happen to me in the future because wasn't it me who told myself (and you) that;

"In life, either one of these two things will always happen; things will get better or worse."

Argh certain things makes so much sense it drives me insane.

Du vet jeg elsker deg.

Goodbye

From this post on, I will start typing proper "I"s :3

Hey hullo.

Few things to blurt to you about. :)

1.
As you can tell, I did not do a New Year post this year.
As some of most of you may have known, I was hospitalised again from 28th December to 2nd January.
Yes I was hospitalised for 2 years bahaha!!

Okay so the moment I had been waiting for for months finally arrived, but in a way I had least expected.
But, yeah, for the better, it had to happen.

I will only say that the catheter is officially out and I had to go through a long process of figuring out which type of antibiotics was to be given to me.
Good thing it didnt hurt that much :3
Although I did find out I was allergic to one of them.
And then they gave me the meds to put the rashes off, and then I got high for a while ahahaha!.
And to make sure I didnt have any reactions to the new antibiotic they were going to give me, Mumma, a nurse and a doctor stayed with me from 2-3am haha it was weird.
I read a book (Sophie Kinsella's The Undomestic Goddess) in two days, and ate McDonalds like many many times (only because I really cannot stand hospital food anymore)

 

Oh I was really terribly upset about the hospitalisation for a few reasons by the way.
Really didnt want to do it haha.
So I spent the change of year by watching Daniel Jerome on Youtube :3
And I could hear the fireworks from the ward!. Haha.
I went home on Monday with an Oreo McFlurry.
And I always come home with the weirdest post IV bruises haha :/

2.
School has started once again for me.
I have to say its really weird for me, and I just hate the fact that I am such a quiet and awkward person by nature, and what the side effects are doing to me are definitely just not helping.
My new classmates are really nice though.
Look what the new buddy drew for me :3

But its just weird when people are so nice to you yet you are not nice to yourself at all.
But I am pretty much dying for some pressure, to distract myself apart from the other stuff.
But I am just so affected, it affects everything else.
Okay now I aint talking sense.
I mean, just WHY.
I really have to see the good side of it, and not just the bad.
But the bad just overpowers and overtakes everything, the bad is the one that always shows up more than the good ever will.
And that just hurts.
People dont even recognize me now.
Do I recognize myself?
Haha, I shall not look forward to/be too positive about school so much so that when its nice to me I will be genuinely surprised. :3
Here is a song I have been feeling for quite a while.

"The way you walk, thats me.
The way you talk, thats me.
The way youve got your hair up, did you forget thats me?"
I realized that so far in my life, the way I lived and all, I always let someone "make" me.
I mean, its okay if you get inspired by how someone does something or how someone looks and all.
But I dont only let them inspire me, I also let them shape me up to become a total someone else.
Of course theres the good and bad, but thats another thing.
Its almost always, "first you made me who I am and then you made it" and "youre the reason why I'm always getting faded" BUT I will never "take a shot for you" :)

"Ok look Im honest.
Girl i cant lie I miss you.
She says I know youve changed.
I never see you cuz youre always busy doing things.
I really wish she had a different way of viewing things.
I think the city that we're from just kinda ruined things.
Its such a small place; not much to do but talk and listen.
The men are jealous and the women all in competition.
And all your friends telling you stories that you often misinterpret
And taint all the images of your Mr Perfect"
Really, this just hits the spot.
Why must everyone see change as bad?
Well, I admit I do too, most of the time.
But why must they see the change in others but not in themselve?
Why dont they bother to try and understand the change first?
Why dont they try and view it a different way?
And the city, the society, is just not helping.
They keep making people want to see changes as well.
And, yeah, now all people can do is talk and/or listen.
They just dont do as much anymore, even myself.
Also, obviously, the stories that we all always get to hear for free which just ruins things.
Then again, I too wish things never have to change.
 I always ask myself why happy things have to change.
But thats just how life goes and thats just what we have to live with.
I can only wonder if things could change back to the way it was.

"I could tell that you were crying all night, drinking all summer.
Praying for your happiness, hope that you recover.
This is one i know you hated when you heard it.
And its worse because you know that I deserve it."
I could tell that i was crying all night, (not) drinking all summer.
Praying for my happiness, hope that I'll recover.
This is one I know I hated when I heard it.
And its worse because I know that I deserve it.

"May your neighbours respect you.
Trouble neglect you.
Angels protect you.
And heaven accept you."

AND here is Daniel Jerome's frikkin awesome choreo to the song (and Marvin's Room).
Also the exact choreo I was watching during the New Year's countdown haha.
Yay.


"But this aint a movie, I know you cant come with me, you've got your life."

Du vet jeg elsker deg.
Goodbye